Infinite Receiving

Infinite Receiving is for female entrepreneurs and conscious leaders who are ready to tap into more abundance and limitless living. You already have a good life, you are ready to make it great. You are looking to access how to make it exquisite with next level impact, joy, abundant wealth and emotional intelligence. You're open to quantum expansion and conscious creation, with a desire to experience a deeper connection with life which supports you in elevating your business, relationships and wealth. Hosted by Suzy Ashworth, international Keynote Speaker, Author & Mentor, you'll learn the how to transform your life through the power of quantum transformation, feminine energetics and embodiment. This podcast is the one to listen to if you're ready for Infinite Receiving.

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Notes On Grief

November 14, 2025 • Suzy Ashworth • Season 3 • Episode 47

This week I’m returning to the mic after losing my niece, Tahlia June. I’m sharing honestly about grief, the collision of identities we hold during loss, and what it feels like to keep moving when nothing feels normal.

I talk about the last moment I shared with her, why documenting my life matters more than ever, and how the tools I’ve taught for twelve years support me in the moments I’d give anything to avoid.

If you’re navigating loss this episode will hold you, ground you, and remind you that you’re not alone.

QUOTES

"There’s a part of me that wants to run past the pain, but I can’t and I shouldn’t. This is part of the process."
"The tools I’ve taught for twelve years don’t erase the grief, but they’re what will carry me through it."
"This podcast has become a living archive of who I am, beyond being a mum, a coach, or a business owner it’s the version of me my kids will one day hear."

HIGHLIGHTS

00:02:14: The surreal ‘in-between’ of grieving while life continues
Suzy shares the conflict of returning to work while everything feels deeply abnormal, and the emotional complexity of being both an aunt grieving the loss and a sister witnessing her sibling’s unimaginable pain.

00:06:55: Why she chose to record in the middle of grief, not after it
She opens up about the role this podcast plays as a personal legacy, a place where her children will one day hear the parts of her that exist beyond motherhood, and why honesty, not polish, matters right now.

00:12:38: Applying years of inner work when it matters most
Suzy reflects on the principles she’s taught for over a decade, how they remain true even now, and why emotional waves can’t and shouldn’t be rushed, even as she longs to feel good again.

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Faith + Action = Miracles

This is the Infinite Receiving podcast. Helping conscious leaders like you tap into a wealth of abundance across all areas of your life and business. My name is Suzy Ashworth. I am a single mom of three and author of the Sunday Times best selling book Infinite Receiving. Crack the code to conscious wealth creation and finally manifest your dream life. On this show, I'll be sharing with you how you can upgrade your identity and your reality to create the life that you have been dreaming of because you are ready to be an infinite receiver.

Hello, hello you gorgeous human being. This is Suzy Ashworth and you are listening to the Infinite Receiving Podcast. I know what is even going on. I absolutely know that you will hear my dulcet tones on the pod again in the not too distant future, maybe even next week. But this is my first episode back after having a week off to be in the process of mourning the death of my niece Talia June to diabetes, type 1 diabetes. And it feels really odd, weird, conflicting to be working and almost like carrying on as normal, except this feels so abnormal and things will never be normal in the way that they were ever again. And I shared with my WhatsApp group, I have a free group on WhatsApp for fellow miracle makers. Just what a weird position.

This feels a weird position to be in because I was Tahlia's auntie and I am my sister's sister. And as a mother of three kids, to lose a child is like our biggest fear. I feel comfortable with speaking on behalf of all mothers right now. That's our biggest fear, right? To lose a child. So I can imagine from that perspective how she's feeling right now. But that's it. I can imagine, but I don't know. I can imagine as a mother, but I don't know. And at the same time, Tahli was my niece and I was thinking about the last time that I saw her. Tara had brought her over to the house and she just gave me the biggest squeeze.

She's like a very accomplished hugger and there was just so much love in that hug and I'm so grateful that I got to receive that and give that. So grateful. So as her auntie, there's just this overwhelming sense of sadness for all of the hugs I will not get. And so I'm here, I'm recording the podcast and I'm in it. And I was saying in my free group that it's unusual for me to post whilst I am in the process of. Of. And yet there is something that strikes me. I heard actually Brooke Castillo saying it A few weeks ago. And just in this particular context, like, it strikes me that it is such a gift to have this platform and to be able to share with my kids after I have gone a whole different perspective of myself for them.

And it's like, of course I am a mom, but there's this whole version of me that exists outside of the lens of being your mom. And this podcast I've been recording over the last four years is a really beautiful document of that because it has been so personal. Yeah, there's loads of business in here, but it's also been just so much personal stuff. And when I think about why I do this podcast, like, yes, it's to sell courses and certifications and events and all of that good stuff, but really, it's about giving you the opportunity to get to know me and know whether you would want to be in my world, whether you would want to pay to be in my world to learn more from me. So I know that I could be way more strategic with this platform.

I could be way more focused and turning it into a selling machine. But the season that I am in right now is that I want to share even more deeply, more authentically who I am. Because all of the work that I have created over the last 12 years, everything that I believe in still stands. None of it has changed. I still know that how I choose to respond in this moment will create my next moment. I still know that. And it doesn't take away the sadness, it doesn't take away the grief. It doesn't take away the anger. It doesn't take away the sense of unfairness, doesn't take away any of that.

Because all of that is my human heart just living this incredibly tough life at times, but without all of the stuff that I have taught, that I have first learned for myself, learned in some cases at such an exquisite level. And in other cases, I am a toddler. I'm so at the beginning of the journey, but have learned these lessons nevertheless. All of those lessons are the things that are going to get me through this period. I have never been more motivated to apply these lessons. And in part, some of that is because I just. I don't want to not feel good again. I want to, at some point, feel really good again. And I know that those lessons will help me do that.

There's a part of me that knows that there is another part of me that just wants to rush through the waves of grief and pain that I feel for me, that I feel for my sister, that I feel for her sisters that I feel for my kids. I would love to be able to hop, skip, run, jump over that, but I can't. And I shouldn't hate the words shouldn't, but I shouldn't. You know, this is part of the process. So there will be definitely singing at the beginning of the podcast again. Also, it's important to say that even in this week there have been moments of laughter and joy and silliness and there's been some dancing and movement and gratitude and appreciation of beauty. Life has still continued even with the heaviness of this like precious, precious girl. So thank you for listening.

For any of you who have been touched by the loss of a loved one, especially a young loved one, I feel for you so much. I love you so much. I invite you to remember that faith plus action really does equal miracles.

Thank you for listening to Infinite Receiving with me, Suzy Ashworth. I'd love to share with you my Infinite Receiving activation audio. Go to: www.suzyashworth.com/activateinfinitereceiving.